over you..

....1:20am..still im up..nalala nanaman kita.. oo sya nga..i heard this song kasi eh, now im trying really hard makalimutan lang kita, hindi ka naman kasi ganun kadali kalimutan, hindi rin naman ako ganun kasama para ibaon sa limot ang lahat, syempre nangingi babaw parin ang pagmamahal..oo, hangggang ngayon mahal ko pa sya, pero siguro ang mahal ko nalang eh ang mga alaala..hindi ko rin masabi..

pero, masasabi ko na medyo ok na ko, nakakatawa na ng walang halong kaplastikan, natututo na uling ngumiti, at unti unti ko na din natututunan na buksan uli ang puso ko hindi para sa bagong taong mamahalin kundi para sa mga kaibigan at pamilya na syang kumukumpleto sa pagtibok nito..itong puso ko na hindi mo lang sinara nuong niloko mo ko, kundi  sinira't dinurog mo..medyo nahihirapan akong mamulot sa mga piraso nito pero alam ko kaya ko..at kakayanin ko, wala naman ako choice..

magtatatlong linggo na tayong hiwalay at magiisang linggo na tayong walang komunikasyon..pero parang ang bawat araw sakin ay katumbas ng isang taon..nalulungkot ako na nawala ka sakin.. pero mas nalungkot ako nung narinig ko ang balita na opisyal na kayo na ng pinalit mo sakin..sana lang maging masaya kayo..(oops walang halong pagkabitter yun ha?).. totoo..ang gusto ko maging masaya sya..na nakikita ko naman na masaya nga sya ngayon..

sana balang araw.. may lakas na ko ng loob na sabihin na ''im over you''"..kasi ngayon wala pa.. nasa proseso palang ako sa pagaaral uling mahalin ang sarili ko, pagpulot ng pirapirasong puso ko..at pagpepretend na masaya at wala akong dinadalang problema..

ok lang ako..unti unti nagiging okey na ang lahat..alam ko ikaw ok ka na din kasama sya..
mahal pa din kita talga haaay.. and im still not over you..sana bukas im over you na..sana..

OVER YOU...

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee...

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee 

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…