unang hakbang palayo..

MY HEROINE..

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me!
You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.
I can forget, the times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine!

You won't leave me alone!
Chisel my heart out of stone, I give in every time.

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had
I can forget, the times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine!

I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself (myself).
I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else.

Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal.
But under your covers more torture than pleasure
And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on, I'll break you, my habit!

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.
I can forget, the times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine!

I will save myself!

Taken from the Offical Silverstein Forum: | Reviewer: Anonymous | 6/9/10

"I wrote it. The lyrics mean a lot to me. It's about a situation I have been in where I was with someone and I couldn't move on even though I knew I was better off leaving them behind. I likened the relationship to a drug addicion, where even though you know it's terrible for you, you can't get away from it. When I say "you're my heroine", it means that I am envious almost that the person can have such a hold on me. It's a double meaning."

--kumakanta kasi ako kanina, at syempre yan ang kinakanta ko..favorite ko na yang song na yan nuon pa man, i dont know, maybe im a fan of silverstein, gusto ko kasi yung poprock sa songs..pero ngayon ko lang talaga ininternalize yung lyrics and yung meaning ng kanta..at ayun! sapul nanaman ang pagka emo ko!tapos nabasa ko pa yung review na yan na nasa itaas..tama sya, double meaning talaga ang kanta, the band compare the drugs into a person or sa isang relationship..

parang si palaka..mahal na mahal ko siya..masaya ko pag kasama sya pero..maraming oras na nasasaktan nya ako..at kahit anong gawin ko di ko makokontrol nararamdaman nya at kung anong dapat nyang gawin..

But under your covers more torture than pleasure
And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you

 kahit bawal..kahit sobrang sakit..kahit halos mawalan na ko ng panahaon sa sarili ko..di  kita kayang iwanan ..pero gaya ng sabi sa huling linya ng kanta..

I will save myself!

TAMA NA! I NEED TO GO ON!MOVE ON!eto na.. start na ng bagong hakbang palayo sakanya..sana makayanan ko..mahirap baguhin ang nakasanayan na, pero kakayanin ko.. para narin sa sarili ko..im running out of words right now..but watever pain it will cause me to let HER go..i'll take it!..even it takes an ocean of tears..

and now hear it comes.. the agony of letting you go and losing you..it's killing me..